The shame of it all....

I have a secret to confess.....it's embarrassing really. I cannot start my morning until I have read the celebrity news on AOL, People.com and TMZ. I don't know what my problem is. I really couldn't care less about Lindsey Lohan, Britney Spears, or the Anna Nicole bizarre after death spectacle, in fact I hate it - but yet I thrive on it too. I think that is how a lot of people probably are, I mean really - Paris Hilton is a joke. She has not talent, is not very pretty and never has anything to say worth listening to -and yet - I read the crap about her. I watch The Best Week Ever on VH1 and I love The Soup. I watch these stupid entertainment newszines or whatever they are called and bitch about them the whole time. When one particular celebrity becomes the obsession - I say I'm not going to watch anymore. Any my husband laughs and says - yes you will. And he's right! I hate that he's right!

Whenever there is breaking news.....(Birkhead's the daddy)- my sister and I race to call each other 1st about it. It's kind of a joke between us- neither of us takes any of it seriously - the sad thing is usually when one of us calls to tell the other the "latest" - the other one usually already knows.

And I wonder - why? Why do I read this shit?I feel its rather pathetic but yet I'm drawn to it like a moth to a flame. I'm a college graduate, with a semi-serious career. I have plenty of other hobbies and would say I'm pretty "normal". I think part of it is, I'm sooo bored with my job. It gives me something to do for about 1/2 hour every morning before I start my real day. I also think its bizarre and fascinating - one that these hundreds of paparazzi obsessively follow these people around - its sick and two that some of these people ( Britney, ANS, Lohan) - seem to just thrive on the attention and can't seem to take a dump without calling the media in to take pictures. I guessI'm part of the equation too, i look at the stuff every day along with millions of others. And I wonder, if i got a new job that didn't allow me to read the internet, or I was too busy to do it - would I have it downloaded to my cellphone so I could read it - or race home every night to get online to read the dish? I try to convince myself that No - I would give it up - I don't need to read this garbage every day...or do I....